there is no better feeling than going to the mailbox and seeing a letter from your favorite missionary, the one you haven't heard from in over a month.  it's kind of funny how just a couple pieces of paper can make you that happy.  wow, i am starting to sound a little pathetic.  but geez, those couple pieces of paper made my day and they came just when i needed them most.

now i am starting to question modern forms of communication, i don't think anything can beat getting a handwritten letter.

the warmth of your soul, well it felt so nice.

goodbyes are hard and so i am kind of dreading tonight.  this boy has been one of my best friends for quite a while and i am really going to miss him.  i will miss our jokes, his family (they move to florida about a week after he leaves), banana grams, his stories, the couch, scooter rides, walks, trixie, our music, his rants, our car rides, texting him, tennis, his crazy hair styles...  

how i got so lucky to have him as a friend, i don't know.

cebu, you are getting the best of the best.

We're done. But it's not over.

I sincerely apologize for the lack of attention I have given this blog as of late. It just get's hard to keep everything updated. I have had so much going on. I have a nannying job every Tuesday and Thursday from 8 in the morning to 5 in the afternoon. As a result, my life has been crazy. Call me the babysitting machine because that is all I have been doing. If I am not tending children, chances are, you will find me driving around campus yelling at all the annoying zoobies. The students are back in town; let the yelling begin. That may be one of my favorite past times. What makes matters worse is that since BYU starts school tomorrow, everyone has moved out and are moving on and I have another 12 days left till I arrive at that point of my life. I am in major limbo. The friends that I have hung out with all summer have to, quote, "fit me into their busy schedules" now...you know what I say to that? BOGUS. I am getting so excited to leave. I keep fighting the urge to pack my bags.

*less than two weeks Kenze, you can make it*

You know what else is weird? Coulsen and Jordan gave their farewell talks today. It still baffles me as to how fast time goes by. I mean, Coulsen took me on my first date. That does not seem like that long ago at all.

There is a line from the song Everybody's Changing by Keane that says, "You're gone from here, soon you will disappear, fading into beautiful light. Cause everybody's changing...and I don't feel the same." It's one of those harsh realities. Everyone is going their own way. I've been having a hard time with that lately because change scares me. It's sad to think a lot people who have been really big parts of my life, won't be anymore. It's that whole, "some people are in your life for a season, some are there for a reason" type thing.

Change is so unknown.

Adjusting to change is just as bizarre.

I think it frightens me even more to realize, I am changing. I am getting older and I realize change is good but it is still one of my biggest fears.

However, if you can believe it, I am not scared about the biggest change of my life to date. I feel so much peace about my decision to go to BYU Hawaii. I have talked to Corbin so much about it and I honestly know I am suppose to be there. I am so pumped. I can't imagine what my life would be like if I was staying here in Utah. It's a weird thought, really.

LESS THAN TWO WEEKS. YOU CAN MAKE IT.

WOOT.