sometimes, i forget to actually write about myself and what i am feeling on my blog, not just about what i am doing. i think i have a fear of boring my readers but, i need to get over that fear because i started this blog for the selfish purpose of preserving my memories.
i think i can honestly say that right now, i am the happiest i have been in a while. i remember talking to by boss over the summer about my decision to come back to hawaii and she told me that the most important lesson she has learned in life is to never put your personal feeling of peace on the line. i was really scared to come back to hawaii, i had so many feelings of apprehension but, i am so thankful for the decision i made to step onto that plane.
i don't know why i was born with the curse of worrying but, i was. i stress out so much about the future. am i in the right place? am i with the right people? am i really being the best i can be? am i doing the right things?
in church on sunday, the stake relief society came and talked to us and one of the sisters emphasized the importance of aligning our will with god's. i think i have a really hard time with this, although it is what i most want in life. i stress out so much about my plans that i put the lord's aside. i know so whole-heartedly that he knows what is best for me but i sometimes forget that he knows and sees the whole picture. i've learned a really important lesson this week and month: it is so much easier to put our trust in god's plan than in our own. what's difficult is trying to figure out exactly what god's plan is.
in church on sunday, the stake relief society came and talked to us and one of the sisters emphasized the importance of aligning our will with god's. i think i have a really hard time with this, although it is what i most want in life. i stress out so much about my plans that i put the lord's aside. i know so whole-heartedly that he knows what is best for me but i sometimes forget that he knows and sees the whole picture. i've learned a really important lesson this week and month: it is so much easier to put our trust in god's plan than in our own. what's difficult is trying to figure out exactly what god's plan is.
one of my favorite scriptures is john 14:27 "peace i leave with you, my peace i give unto you: not as the world giveth, give i unto you. let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." lately, i have felt so much of that peace. not the false sense of peace that the world sends but the quite and divine peace that comes from my lord and redeemer.
my heart is so full of gratitude and love towards my savior and for the peace his gospel brings.
i am so thankful to be where i am, to be doing what i am doing, and to be surrounded by the people i am with.
"learn of me, and listen to my words; walk in the meekness of my spirit, and you shall have peace in me."
{Doctrine and Covenants 19:23}
im new to your blog and am loving it.
ReplyDeletei love this post, its uplifting and made me grateful as well (:
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this was such a great post. i always love hearing the true feelings of those who blog. yours read true through and through. i also struggle with the worry curse. thanks for reminding me to keep the lord's plan for me in mind and that in the end all things will work out. that scripture is sooo great. when i first started college i was terrified and worry was a constant feeling but that scripture really helped me feel peaceful about the new things taking place in my life. so glad scriptures are there for us like that.
ReplyDeleteI am in loveeee with your blog. I actually found you through my dear friend Kylee's blog ^^^ yup that's her! Anywayyyy i loved reading your testimony of the Lord's plan for each of us! you are amazing!!
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Love this. I am so grateful for the gospel and all that it has taught me over the years. I agree that figuring out what God's plan is can be really hard though. And I love that scripture.
ReplyDeletethis is such a lovely post girl. and your blog is simply adorable. and you're right, don't worry about boring "us". this blog is yours and you can write about anything your little heart desires. and those who really care what you have to say will stick around for the ride.
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